Saturday, December 11, 2010

Safe and Sound Day

I think I need an iPhone. No, I WANT an iPhone.
Having this thought by the yellow dock at university lake-one of my favourite spot-, with my pink book 'Kitchen', half-read, laying before my red mobile phone. The distinguish colours of things and me might easily be spotted on Google earth. I missed my sport shoes. If not, I could have run and chased away the fatigue landed so long on the shoulders. It has been a long time since I last sat here. Watching the jogging students, passing-by vehicles, and the shadows of buildings on the surface of water could be interesting, at this moment. At that position, I overlooked TM tower and several malls around. The sky was rather beautiful, and birds flying by in flocks. It was still bright, and I've not experienced this brightness of evening since I started working-I usually stay up late in the office to avoid traffic jam,sky is always dark when I leave office, strangely, I couldn't adapt to the bright sky sometimes when I was off from work-, I took time to indulge myself in the book. I crossed my legs, and folded my legs like I was meditating. In spite in the noise, I was absorbed in the story. I stopped once a while to take a glance at the sky, or at the lake, and continued. When the sky was turning dark, like wearing a jacket slowly, the dark cloud swallowed slowly the white one. It was getting dark, at the same time the buildings were lit up. Little lights scattered like firefly which grew intense when the sky was in total black. The city was never darkened, yet it was lonely. We were so used to lights. Positive and negative emotions melted, and blended with the surroundings. That moment was of a wonderful one.

The urge to share was not put into action.
Sometimes you just think of somebody far away.
Is he doing well in the other side of the world? I wondered.

Had two nightmares in a row and I am safe.
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Monday, December 6, 2010

我們到底怎麽了?

我們到底怎麽了?
這句話在我以百計的速度奔馳在高速公路時蹦出來的,
充斥整輛車,慌神是會有的,打起五百份精神繼續駕車,
roommate昏昏地睡了過去。。。

哦,我們說著多麽不願意回吉隆坡,因爲又要工作了。
唉聲嘆氣的。
沒有工作為五斗米折腰的人兒們,
你們忍耐一下吧,我們只是想深深呼吸。

哈哈。我們談著工作、生活、夢想。
工作似乎把我們壓得扁扁的,我們想著逃離這裡,
卻越來越靠近。
我的夢想長了翅膀,還是腿?
應該像蛇一樣的絲絲蠕走了。
太安靜了。

當初,不是我們選擇了工作嗎?

今天回家回的得早,家人都驚嘆不已。
鞋子坏了,拿去修理,因爲不想浪費,
因爲很好穿,因爲環保,因爲想有修鞋的經驗。
一個小時的時間,靜靜的看著他修理鞋子。
當然我們偶爾聊幾句,有我在怎麽可能完全沒説話。
他很認真,很專心做鞋子,到嘴巴會不自覺地打開。

他說他是印尼人,在馬來西亞長大。
問比較喜歡印尼還是馬來西亞,
他有點含糊,伊伊爾爾。

有位朋友離鄉背井了,
沒有背到男朋友,加油哦!

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Thursday, November 25, 2010

Me & Myself


Albus Percival Wulfric Brian Dumbledore
I like this name, especially 'Wulfric'.

I bought gardenia bread, it's my breakfast. I bought pringles, soft-shell crab flavoured, instead of popcorn. And Sze Chuan egg egg mee for Fei. Oh ya, iced lemon tea, in case I am thirsty.
I saw a middle-aged man, holding gun at the playstation, in his working suit. He looked boring and dull, like he'll work non-stop until he's dead, no, it's like he's not going to die. He then wandered, and pauses at some shops, and walked away. What is life?
I saw a little guy, 9 year-old, watching Harry Potter with me. I asked him where is your parent? - Jalan jalan. What a kid! I like him.

Written in the cinema while watching some ads. Gonna watch The Chronicles of Narnia and the social network.Not now. Soon.
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Sunday, October 24, 2010

Good Morning!

I was at my office,
on this freaking
(beautiful?) Saturday!

A good start is already half way to success.
Salad dressing : olive oil,
vinegar + a pinch of salt.
Margarinated bread,
Yummy!

Posting with my breakfast
at the backyard of office,
alone, not too bad.

Well, not alone,
with my new boss.
He was sitting nicely
supervising me.
Ohlala...
TOO much vege
can be qualmish.
I decided to put them all in
my pity size bread,
and ate them up!
I was waiting for
my colleague, Fei
to come to office.

I don't usually work
on Saturday,
except for today.
For YuHang & KLEX.


I am writing like this in conjunction with KLEX.
I do apologize for the low resolution of pictures, because I love tinier things.
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Tuesday, September 21, 2010

A Real Quick Post

Oh ya, I am glad that I spent time reading the blogs I follow, at least.'Ive started working and I've told friends that I am going to blog about it, but I didn't.It is always the next day when I sleep, fun huh?Maybe the relaxing atmosphere in the office+flexible timing made me slower like a tortoise.Why do I want a quick post, because I want to console the little kid in me.
She has always a lot of thoughts, but less time, pity her*pat on her head*
It was also because, I've spent like half day handling company's blog,
still can't get a nice one, and I was thinking, what about my blog?
So, I am here now, still stinky and sticky.

Below are some fragments of thought that ran over my mind which I still could remember.

Found this picture in a friend's FB album, and I suddenly ran out to the balcony to look at the moon. I think I missed that. And I realized it's been a long time I didn't really look at the sky.
By the way, it's a love-shaped moon, did they make this up?

Oh, I've graduated? Yay, I've graduated! I've graduated. All these emotions actually appeared. So, feeling can be quite deceitful, because they change, so don't stay in it, enjoy the moment.Thanks to those who helped me through the semesters, especially some hard one in university.The real touching part was the marching of scholars to the hall. Silent. Palace music. It felt really special and you're one of the scholars. Worth waiting for few hours for the ceremony la, even though we went up to the stage less than 3 seconds.I start to miss my coursemates and lectures already :(

Apa Khabar Orang Kampung
(Picture courtesy of http://www.dahuangpictures.com/blogs/akok.php/2006/11/17/info/)

I've recently watched a lot of films, including this creative documentary titled
Apa Khabar Orang Kampung
by Amir Muhammad. It talks about the Malaysians who were once fought for the independence for Malaysia but now lived in exile in southern Thailand.
I didn't study much about the history, but I believe that. I felt so sad and sorry that the interviewees spend their whole life for the country, but in the end, getting old in the neighboring country oversee the beloved homeland.

That's all for now :) Take care everyone!

Hey, it turned out to be a long post, bravo!
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Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Idea is like a virus, resilient...
Whoops, it seems I can't remember what Leonardo, to be precise, Cobb said.
The world is the reality we live in, or the reality is the world we think it to be.
Ok, this is how my lousy cerebrum works, always falls in fallacies.
Oh ya, this is really a good movie that it makes you think, while reflecting to your life, as well as enjoying the thrilling action scenes.
It has been a while, I lived like Cobb.
Memories and dreams were my beautifully-designed world,
trapped myself and someone's shadow in.
Understanding the so-called truth, and lived like as if there will be no problem.
I need some stronger stimulus here, a kiss perhaps..haha!!!

We need to wake up, from dream and from real life.
This is a good movie, truly inspiring.

Implantation of good ideas are on the go!
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Tuesday, June 15, 2010

感应

不知该说些什么好。
正好想起了些往事,
不能追问的以后事,
在心中轮回了好几次。
那是在厕所闪过的灵光,
说来好笑。
就在同一天,好事发生。
这里在想,那里发生。
虽不能分享喜悦与荣耀,
窃喜已融和了心里的遗憾。
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Monday, May 17, 2010

Holiday, long one.

Back in hometown almost two weeks. Life here is simple, but not easy. Graduated, even though it's not official yet, but people tends to ask about your future. Future, something that one can't even tell themselves, they want to know others'. Ok, enough of the stress release.

Let me present to you the Pintu Gerbang of my village - Machap Umboo! 'Finally'..
(......)
i think i must do some programs at home - family gathering, trip, gotong-royong etc, to earn some since i am on long holiday. I am sure my mum will be happy to spend money on me :) this way,haha!




This pintu gerbang is made of stainless steel, and you can't imagine how fast this beautiful thing is done - TWO freaking days! Everything is express during election! I love it! How about a swimming pool? I can go swim this Wednesday already. A new badminton court? I can play with many friends to cut down weight like really really soon. More trees? I can sit down (elegantly) under the tree with my hot coffee and not-yet-finished A Little Princess. Life would be good. Because it's stainless steel, i bet my great great grandson or daughter might be impressed by this gigantic porte in front of MU. Thinking of it, i feel like craving my name and my lover's name on it, to signify the everlasting of love. I was wondering if we can use those stainless steels to make some weapons if there are robbers who want to pay a visit here. My friends used to have problems coming to my house, with this porte, i can show them the way easily. Yeah, meringankan beban saya! Below is the sign board of our Kampung Permai, Machap Umboo, i will still sayang you k!

My mum is now sitting in front of me eating! The way she eats make me feel starving! Restaurant should pay her to eat at their restaurant so that she attracts customers. Do contact me if you want my mum to be your ambassador! Gotta go eat :) Bubye :)
Another nostalgic post is coming later, ciao!

i feel crazy today.
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Wednesday, April 28, 2010

My Ending April of 2010


April is ending. Today is not a good day.I realized that I am still the Winnie I was in one year ago. I remember vividly when teacher asked me what was my problem for not coming to classes, I answered 'attitude problem', to bring myself to the front, to face myself. 'Kalau nak berjaya kenalah berubah sikap', said the teacher. All these thoughts came to me when I was sitting under a big tree near by library.I breathed calmly..

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Running under the hot sun was no longer a difficult task. My eyes kept looking at my watch, while running across the zebra crossing. I reached quickly to faculty of social science, printed my assignment, ran again to my faculty. I reached on time! I was glad. The office door was left ajar, and madame's familiar voice welcomed me. I soon knew that I had no chance to discuss because she was reading a master's student's thesis. I passed her the assignment and all she wanted me to do was to sign on a paper. That was it. My sweat was not even dried out in that air-conditioned room.

I left the room quietly and started to think of the grade. Submitting the assignment was not a relief at all! Regrets just flooded into my mind. Keep asking myself 'why?'. It felt like a Kamikaze. Ok, I was too much. I walked back to the library. I saw every single thing that came across my sight and I realized this is my very last semester in uni. I walked slowly as I looked at the things around me. It has been changing since I was 1st in uni. What would UM look like the next time I come back? That was when I reached to a chair made out of stone under a big tree.

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I took 15 minutes to talk to myself, of course blaming myself. Thinking my housemate would be starving in the frigo-like library, I stood up and gained energy, headed back. I knew I must carry on and do better. I left my negative emotion with the chairs. Pity those chairs.

C'est la vie!

Special thanks to Lalitha, Cynthia and SingPing(from left to right) who made my day. They were studying for their next paper and I was busy taking pictures. Not forgetting the broccoli-doumiao-potato from Marche.
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Wednesday, April 14, 2010

六千尺高

不能了!不能了!
我今天一定要写!
最近太多话想说,
却提不起来!

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时间过得很快(最容易的开场),
就像刚说上云顶,
就像从云顶回来,
就像上大学,
就像要毕业。

心情调得算好,波动一个两三天,平伏了许多。
往往在最后关头,才想要珍惜,这是人性?还是习惯?
快要毕业了,特多get-together的活动,
提款机也拼命的呕钱。。
去不成马六甲,去了云顶,
还给老师和两位同学放鸽子,
只有上课时偶尔会齐人。。漏风!(-_-)"
最开心的是,西班牙文和中文组的同学参我们!
还有一位乖乖有熟络的学妹。

话说,当天是我最迟到,结果整群人从移KL sentral移师去Gombak!
就浩浩荡荡的去了。45分钟就到了!从来不知云顶那么近!
排队,上缆车,拍照,拍照和拍照!当然下缆车,吃东西,发呆,
check-in,拍照,走走,讲话,吃冰淇淋,录影,玩牌。。。
好像没什么特别,但是超开心的咯!

很喜欢和她们出去玩,不需顾虑太多,只关照顾好自己。
就好像有的去吃sushi king,有的现check-in,
就好像有的去主题公园,有的去打保龄球,
感觉还是一起,会一起分享所发生的事。
感觉真的好好,也很难形容:)

发现,
欣萍的肚子好软好软,很想一直抓;聪明人!
晓薇还真单纯blur blur的,好可爱,
lal其实很有智慧,平淡看待生死,
凯碧真的是太会照顾人了吧,时常顾大局罢了,自己叻?!
永爱真会让别人开心,却不理会自己的感受,她才是太阳花!
雨灵给我的感觉很沉稳、成熟;而且很摸!
振豪是我们当中唯一的男生,其实不会害羞,
相处起来像是我们授受不亲的姐妹咯,呵呵!
cynthia真的很珍惜我们的友谊,
有种大姐头的感觉,却需要别人关心的一个她。

还想和她们呆久一点,要下山了;
还想知道她们多一点,要毕业了。
时间过得真的好快好快。。

前一阵子,因为要毕业了,难免会会有离愁。
和两年前,要离开宿舍的感觉很相似,
那时还有一个人听我倾诉,
这个时候只有自己一个人对着电脑双手遮着脸哭。
要离开了,
一个孕育自己的襁褓,
一个低潮期的避风港,
一个。。。
不知该怎么说了。。

今天学到一样:
当你说着别人不好时,你也不怎么好。

不写了!蟑螂来袭击我了!!!救命啊!!!

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Sunday, January 31, 2010

(无聊?)星期天

由于明天是联邦直辖区日,一连放五天假,妙人回个清光,剩下我和彩羽相依为命。
今天,她得去法鼓分会参与义工培训,我正式宣布一个人在家!!!
好了,做了一整天功课,终算完成两篇翻译和一样电脑功课。
肚子饿了。

突发奇想的洋葱炒江鱼仔。除了遗传妈妈的优良血统,还从安娣那里偷师了。

无厘头式蛋配蟹肉粥。蟹肉切太多了!

开粥咯!

我几忙一下。。

要吃吗?没有人。

要吃吗?还是没有人。p/s:这是我的睡床。

外面下着小雨。

我吃咯!

怎么能那么好吃啊?太好了!太好了!我可以嫁出去了!讲真的,我自拍越来越丑料!

酱油和胡椒粉在这里有点多余。。哈哈!

我陪着妙云,妙云陪着我。
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Thursday, January 7, 2010

才要开始

开学两星期了,感觉上这学期才要开始。
最后一个学期,第一个星期就上课了。
感觉特别珍惜,可能是最后一个学期了。
想想,幸好早回,可以处理add & drop,
选选自己想上的课。
这次有两个选择:
1) 超级忙碌却很充实。
2) 简单、轻松兼安全。
挣扎一番,选了no.2。

原以为可以真的很简单。
今天就遇到了大难题--科系互撞。
科系互撞,就要换时间,
可以换的时间有不多,
还得配合老师的时间,
有得考虑其他科系的同学,
和是否有课室可以上课。
呼!

和一位朋友作了决定,
过后等候朋友的回复,
老师给自己三十分钟回复。。。
看着时钟,
坚决与忐忑。

打给老师,再次和他确定:
'Yes, Tuesday 4.30 to 6.30..
hello sir..?!hello..?!
原来电话没电,就跑去见他。
电话没电原来可以是幸运。
推开门,他的脸色不是很好看。
他认为我不够认真,
'Wern Nie,you have to be serious?
Just now you told me it is on Wednesday?'

'No monsieur,I told you it is on Tuesday!'

'(叹气)Wern Nie, you're not very good at expressing yourself.'
拿着纸就走到另一间房间更改课室地点。

'I'm sorry.'
低着头随他尾,眼泪快决堤,忍着。

过后,发现到老师的时间表从早上一直没停到傍晚。
老师好像觉得我们没为他设想,
明明这些时间是另一位朋友给的,
应该怪自己没有去和老师对证,
也怪自己没有问个清楚。
再多两天就什么也没法改变了,
逼在眉梢!

'So..'
哽咽,不正视老师,
老师看着我,不说话,似乎等我挤出话来。
'So monsieur, Tuesday, 4.30 to 6.30, Bidara.'

'I hope I can survive this.'
老师笑笑地和我说。

我拍拍他的肩膀,心想:
'辛苦你了,老师,一起努力。'
匆匆离开,脸上已流了两行。
2010的第一滴泪。
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时常觉得自己不够好,
因此没有自信、优柔寡断,
但也不想再这样责怪自己了,
觉得自己真的不deserve这样的回应,
为什么让别人的问题困扰自己呢?
开始自私了。
马上读老师给的书,调适自己的心情,
幸好有佛法。

是不是该冷漠对待每件事呢?
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