Friday, August 29, 2008

Hunger

A starving child was crawling to a United Nation camp
for food while a bird was waiting for him to die,to be it's lunch.

It was an ordinary weekend. Few friends and me chose to experience something that could have made a big difference in our life. We went to participate in Famine 30. It's a programme organised by World Vision.It used to be one of the must-join event for me when I was young.

Before went into the DIY camp at Help College, I was thinking to myself. What's the purpose of being hungry for 30 hours?At first, it doesn't mean much to me. As for me, being hungry for 30 hours might not have any impact, apart from being hungry of course,but to the suffered? The funds raised might help. That's all.

Only then I found out.
We've viewed the clips prepared by the World Vision. Things weren't the same as how I imagined. It was worse. Maybe what we've viewed about a child named Kaisong from Laos was a better one, at least she has little frog and crab hidden in between the rock for her whole family to to eat. One might 'Yeeeewww', but that might be a meal per week, if she's lucky enough. Born in a single parent family, her mother is blind and she's the only support for the whole family at the age of 7. How could be the other unknown stories that lie in the inland and isolated places?

Heartache.
We were bare-footed for 6 hours, which were on marble floor. How about those without shoes?On the muddy, sandy and even stony ground? We were so much so lucky!!!
We slept in the sleeping bag, or maybe Yoga mat, yes on the cushioned floor,under a roof, even though it was pretty cold that night. For us, it could be already a hard thing to bear with.
We were told that some of them don't even have a shelter, and even they have one, they might suffer from the risk of losing their 'house' if it's downpour. There was one day that I walked home when it was raining cats and dogs. No matter how cold and how rage the storm was, I felt safe and warm soon after I've reached my house. How about them? Maybe they'll hide in a cave, but if the cave is flooded?...Maybe my imagination went wild. They have to fight for survival all the time!

Difference
Usually we plan what or where to eat after one meal. Nowadays, three meals doesn't seem enough, supper. But for them, they're wondering, WHEN is their next meal? Regardless whether the food is hot or cold.
At the last 3 hours, hallucination started. My mouth kept mumbling 'meehun soup, laksa, McD,etc'. Followed by the next hour, I started to feel hungry, even a short distance to toilet could have make me collapse (as we need to climb up to the upper row seat of the stadium), only 28 hours of starving!!! How about those who have suffered for weeks or months to get to the food distribution camp, if there is one? Even more was, I started to countdown for the fast-breaking.
Finally!!! Everybody held the soya bean as if they were in a wedding function, cheering each other, and 'drinking up' all the cocokrunch. Ouch!!! Stomachache, nausea. That was a right-after-symtomp(?). Because we've emptied our stomach for a long period, it's not suitable to have consume a large amount of food at one time. It wasn't a good experience. Then, how are those who starved for days or weeks? They have to eat, they can't eat much, but they need the food for they can't know when their next meal is. Such a dilemma.

Eyes to See ; Heart to Feel ; Hands to Act.
The biggest gain I've got here is to Appreciate things in life.
We must also be aware of the things happening around us. Do something about it.
We can help them. We can change their life. We can be improved.

'Let my heart be broken by the things that break the heart of God.'

May all being be well and free from sufferings.
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Sunday, August 10, 2008

哇哉,哇哉。

哈哈,不懂应该笑还是哭。
这种感觉竟然在这样的机缘下产生:一通电话。
有时,一席话、一行字仰或一个现象,
就足以改变一个人的人生,观念及对事的态度。
这感觉还不能成为个标准,有待观察,有待观察。
如是如何?如不是又如何?
标准?会是多久的标准?多久它又会再变呢?
这一切一切,依着一个法则运作着。
这唯一不变的法则,我要学习接受它、牢牢记着它、运用它。

可以控制的只有因,其他的交给缘吧。

心,悄悄地随顺因缘,依法运作着。
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Friday, August 8, 2008

情人节快乐

情人节快乐
许个愿
在这七夕
让它成真
在这秋天的开始

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我许了个愿,
希望明年的这天,
不会再许相同的愿望。

PJ下雨了,很久很久没下雨了。
那是一场突如其来的大雨。
曾经听一位老师这么说过,
每逢七夕,一定会下雨,
而且,浸过这雨水的米可以拿来敷脸,脸会很滑。
从来没有试过,因为不相信,PJ的雨水也很高酸性吧。

这天是牛郎与织女久别重逢的日子。
一年的牵肠挂肚是怎么过的?
一年一度的相逢,又会是怎样的呢?
下雨是两人喜极而泣吗?还是知道和彼此又要分离所以哭了?

这天下午,我妄想了一下。

祝所有有情人终成眷属。
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Thursday, August 7, 2008

毕业典礼

最近是学校的毕业典礼,会长达一星期。
有一天,去了素食摊守夜,深夜了,
还是很热闹,而且,学校突然变漂亮了,
这是一年一次的错觉吧,呵呵。
今天,也特地人挤人地,见了senior。
毕业是很开心,很感动的事,
满满人的广场就挤满祝福、喜悦。
忙着拍照的笑得合不拢嘴,忙着被抛的也高喊快乐,
有的juniors忙着找senior,有的和家人相拥道谢。
没有特别准备什么,信都忙得没时间准备。
匆匆忙忙的把礼物交给他,没聊太多,没拍照留念,
但,就是很关心我的心是否健康,当然,我是对他笑的。


Cette lettre est pour vous,

Felicitations!Finalement,la vie a faire des devoirs sans arret a fini.
Mais,une plus dure vie est vous attend.Bon courage!
Je suis desolee d'etre retard d'envoyer cette lettre.
Je suis bien,pas inquiete.Je vous ai donne assez de souci.
Je veux d'etre contente.Je pense que ma vie peut d'etre meilleur.
Je vous remercie,parce que vous m'aidiez beaucoup.
Je vous aime bien,Merci Beaucoup!Prenez soin.

Junior :)

再过一年半,顺利的话,就会是自己的毕业典礼。
那时,谁会来参加我的毕业典礼呢?
我的头发会是多长的呢?我会穿怎样的礼服呢?
我会被抛得多高呢?可以摘到那棵树的叶子吗?
很期待哦!!!
希望到那时,学校的交通安排会好些,
不希望来参加我毕业典礼的人,须为堵车的问题起烦恼。

UM,你也要加油哦!

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福气

谢谢你在我最需要的时候,出现。
谢谢你在我最迷惘的时候,给意见。
谢谢你在我最脆弱的时候,把我脚步稳健。
谢谢你在我最难过的时候,不让我沦陷。

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我想学会信任、我想学会珍惜、
我想学会放松、我想学会关心、
我想学会负责人、
我想学会分辨真假、
我想学会自己做决定、
我想学会听听自己的心。

这几天,自己真的还不够用功,
以致不断地制造问题给身边的人,
不止,离自己身边很远的人也一样,
对不起。。。
不!我不想再说对不起了,是‘加油!’,
‘加油,张雯妮!’
是的,应该是要这样的,加油哦!
我爱你。一定要加油哦!

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Saturday, August 2, 2008

自拔

她,真的很美,笑容很灿烂,可爱的善良,纯纯的。
在情敌面前,自己永远是最差的。
其实她的出现根本是不重要的,重要的是你的心。
我输了,我可以这样说,我输给了自己,输给了时间。
没有人喜欢当后备,后备是不得已之下的选择。
原来坐在你身旁,感觉是那么远的。

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好不容易回到家,却又赶着上回来。
无形的压力把自己带了回家,没有归属感却使自己离开了,
感觉自己都不属于哪里,很孤单。
原来,信任这环对自己也很重要,当然包括尊重。
妈妈对自己真的很不了解,有时真的会让我起烦恼。
我懂你关心我,对不起,让你哭,让你担心了,
但,我真的需要点时间。
不要太担心我,好吗?
这,更让我将我心比他心,幸福怎么的勉强不来吧。
会想剃光头是原本不想打理自己的头发,
想更深一层,原来我要一切重新来过,一切。
希望这‘一切’,能切断心中的执著与爱染。

孤单是直侵心底的,在这大城市更是能感觉到的。
杜绝所有的避风港,对不起,真的很想与你们联络,
但,我不想再想入非非了,给我一点时间,谢谢你们。
盼望自己经历风霜后会更坚强,站得更稳。

宝贝,你要铭记于心: 爱是无私的,无论发生什么事,
你都应该祝福宝宝,你爱他,不是希望他好好的吗?

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