Holiday, long one.

Back in hometown almost two weeks. Life here is simple, but not easy. Graduated, even though it's not official yet, but people tends to ask about your future. Future, something that one can't even tell themselves, they want to know others'. Ok, enough of the stress release.

Let me present to you the Pintu Gerbang of my village - Machap Umboo! 'Finally'..
(......)
i think i must do some programs at home - family gathering, trip, gotong-royong etc, to earn some since i am on long holiday. I am sure my mum will be happy to spend money on me :) this way,haha!

This pintu gerbang is made of stainless steel, and you can't imagine how fast this beautiful thing is done - TWO freaking days! Everything is express during election! I love it! How about a swimming pool? I can go swim this Wednesday already. A new badminton court? I can play with many friends to cut down weight like really really soon. More trees? I can sit down (elegantly) under the tree with my hot coffee and not-yet-finished A Little Princess. Life would be good. Because it's stainless steel, i bet my great great grandson or daughter might be impressed by this gigantic porte in front of MU. Thinking of it, i feel like craving my name and my lover's name on it, to signify the everlasting of love. I was wondering if we can use those stainless steels to make some weapons if there are robbers who want to pay a visit here. My friends used to have problems coming to my house, with this porte, i can show them the way easily. Yeah, meringankan beban saya! Below is the sign board of our Kampung Permai, Machap Umboo, i will still sayang you k!

My mum is now sitting in front of me eating! The way she eats make me feel starving! Restaurant should pay her to eat at their restaurant so that she attracts customers. Do contact me if you want my mum to be your ambassador! Gotta go eat :) Bubye :)
Another nostalgic post is coming later, ciao!

i feel crazy today.
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My Ending April of 2010

April is ending. Today is not a good day.I realized that I am still the Winnie I was in one year ago. I remember vividly when teacher asked me what was my problem for not coming to classes, I answered 'attitude problem', to bring myself to the front, to face myself. 'Kalau nak berjaya kenalah berubah sikap', said the teacher. All these thoughts came to me when I was sitting under a big tree near by library.I breathed calmly..

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Running under the hot sun was no longer a difficult task. My eyes kept looking at my watch, while running across the zebra crossing. I reached quickly to faculty of social science, printed my assignment, ran again to my faculty. I reached on time! I was glad. The office door was left ajar, and madame's familiar voice welcomed me. I soon knew that I had no chance to discuss because she was reading a master's student's thesis. I passed her the assignment and all she wanted me to do was to sign on a paper. That was it. My sweat was not even dried out in that air-conditioned room.

I left the room quietly and started to think of the grade. Submitting the assignment was not a relief at all! Regrets just flooded into my mind. Keep asking myself 'why?'. It felt like a Kamikaze. Ok, I was too much. I walked back to the library. I saw every single thing that came across my sight and I realized this is my very last semester in uni. I walked slowly as I looked at the things around me. It has been changing since I was 1st in uni. What would UM look like the next time I come back? That was when I reached to a chair made out of stone under a big tree.

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I took 15 minutes to talk to myself, of course blaming myself. Thinking my housemate would be starving in the frigo-like library, I stood up and gained energy, headed back. I knew I must carry on and do better. I left my negative emotion with the chairs. Pity those chairs.

C'est la vie!

Special thanks to Lalitha, Cynthia and SingPing(from left to right) who made my day. They were studying for their next paper and I was busy taking pictures. Not forgetting the broccoli-doumiao-potato from Marche.
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六千尺高

不能了！不能了！
我今天一定要写！
最近太多话想说，
却提不起来！

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时间过得很快(最容易的开场)，
就像刚说上云顶，
就像从云顶回来，
就像上大学，
就像要毕业。

心情调得算好，波动一个两三天，平伏了许多。
往往在最后关头，才想要珍惜，这是人性？还是习惯？
快要毕业了，特多get-together的活动，
提款机也拼命的呕钱。。
去不成马六甲，去了云顶，
还给老师和两位同学放鸽子，
只有上课时偶尔会齐人。。漏风!(-_-)"
最开心的是，西班牙文和中文组的同学参我们！
还有一位乖乖有熟络的学妹。

话说，当天是我最迟到，结果整群人从移KL sentral移师去Gombak!
就浩浩荡荡的去了。45分钟就到了！从来不知云顶那么近！
排队，上缆车，拍照，拍照和拍照！当然下缆车，吃东西，发呆，
check-in,拍照，走走，讲话，吃冰淇淋，录影，玩牌。。。
好像没什么特别，但是超开心的咯！

很喜欢和她们出去玩，不需顾虑太多，只关照顾好自己。
就好像有的去吃sushi king,有的现check-in,
就好像有的去主题公园，有的去打保龄球，
感觉还是一起，会一起分享所发生的事。
感觉真的好好，也很难形容:)

发现，
欣萍的肚子好软好软，很想一直抓；聪明人！
晓薇还真单纯blur blur的，好可爱，
lal其实很有智慧，平淡看待生死，
凯碧真的是太会照顾人了吧，时常顾大局罢了，自己叻？！
永爱真会让别人开心，却不理会自己的感受，她才是太阳花！
雨灵给我的感觉很沉稳、成熟；而且很摸！
振豪是我们当中唯一的男生，其实不会害羞，
相处起来像是我们授受不亲的姐妹咯，呵呵！
cynthia真的很珍惜我们的友谊，
有种大姐头的感觉，却需要别人关心的一个她。

还想和她们呆久一点，要下山了；
还想知道她们多一点，要毕业了。
时间过得真的好快好快。。

前一阵子，因为要毕业了，难免会会有离愁。
和两年前，要离开宿舍的感觉很相似，
那时还有一个人听我倾诉，
这个时候只有自己一个人对着电脑双手遮着脸哭。
要离开了，
一个孕育自己的襁褓，
一个低潮期的避风港，
一个。。。
不知该怎么说了。。

今天学到一样：
当你说着别人不好时，你也不怎么好。

不写了！蟑螂来袭击我了！！！救命啊！！！

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(无聊？)星期天

由于明天是联邦直辖区日，一连放五天假，妙人回个清光，剩下我和彩羽相依为命。
今天，她得去法鼓分会参与义工培训，我正式宣布一个人在家！！！
好了，做了一整天功课，终算完成两篇翻译和一样电脑功课。
肚子饿了。

突发奇想的洋葱炒江鱼仔。除了遗传妈妈的优良血统，还从安娣那里偷师了。

无厘头式蛋配蟹肉粥。蟹肉切太多了！

开粥咯！

我几忙一下。。

要吃吗？没有人。

要吃吗？还是没有人。ｐ／ｓ：这是我的睡床。

外面下着小雨。

我吃咯！

怎么能那么好吃啊？太好了！太好了！我可以嫁出去了！讲真的，我自拍越来越丑料！

酱油和胡椒粉在这里有点多余。。哈哈！

我陪着妙云，妙云陪着我。
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才要开始

开学两星期了，感觉上这学期才要开始。
最后一个学期，第一个星期就上课了。
感觉特别珍惜，可能是最后一个学期了。
想想，幸好早回，可以处理add & drop，
选选自己想上的课。
这次有两个选择：
1) 超级忙碌却很充实。
2) 简单、轻松兼安全。
挣扎一番，选了no.2。

原以为可以真的很简单。
今天就遇到了大难题--科系互撞。
科系互撞，就要换时间，
可以换的时间有不多，
还得配合老师的时间，
有得考虑其他科系的同学，
和是否有课室可以上课。
呼！

和一位朋友作了决定，
过后等候朋友的回复，
老师给自己三十分钟回复。。。
看着时钟，
坚决与忐忑。

打给老师，再次和他确定:
'Yes, Tuesday 4.30 to 6.30..
hello sir..?!hello..?!
原来电话没电，就跑去见他。
电话没电原来可以是幸运。
推开门，他的脸色不是很好看。
他认为我不够认真，
'Wern Nie,you have to be serious?
Just now you told me it is on Wednesday?'

'No monsieur,I told you it is on Tuesday!'

'(叹气)Wern Nie, you're not very good at expressing yourself.'
拿着纸就走到另一间房间更改课室地点。

'I'm sorry.'
低着头随他尾，眼泪快决堤，忍着。

过后，发现到老师的时间表从早上一直没停到傍晚。
老师好像觉得我们没为他设想，
明明这些时间是另一位朋友给的，
应该怪自己没有去和老师对证，
也怪自己没有问个清楚。
再多两天就什么也没法改变了，
逼在眉梢！

'So..'
哽咽，不正视老师，
老师看着我，不说话，似乎等我挤出话来。
'So monsieur, Tuesday, 4.30 to 6.30, Bidara.'

'I hope I can survive this.'
老师笑笑地和我说。

我拍拍他的肩膀，心想:
'辛苦你了，老师，一起努力。'
匆匆离开，脸上已流了两行。
2010的第一滴泪。
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时常觉得自己不够好，
因此没有自信、优柔寡断，
但也不想再这样责怪自己了，
觉得自己真的不deserve这样的回应，
为什么让别人的问题困扰自己呢？
开始自私了。
马上读老师给的书，调适自己的心情，
幸好有佛法。

是不是该冷漠对待每件事呢？
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